fourth quarter

dealing with adversity has been a lifelong challenge for me. it seems to be an even tougher challenge now that I'm in the fourth quarter.  typically, when things don't go my way, it's like I'm looking through blackened lenses--everything looks dark and foreboding. I can't see my way out. I panic. physically, I feel sick--hot, feverish, sick to my stomach, headachy.  eventually, the symptoms go away, but the older that I get, the longer that it takes for me to recover.  I don't know why I get so upset when things don't go my way. I wish that I could deal with adversity the way that normal folks can. but, just thinking about adversity launches me into another episode of upsetitis.  

the invasion of ukraine is easy to explain. it's the result of an evil man (men). greed, lust for power, prejudice, hatred, slavery, war, etc. come from evil men. what isn't so easy to explain is disease, birth defects, natural disasters (tornadoes, hurricanes, floods, earthquakes, tsunamis, wildfires, famines, etc.). I suppose that what it all comes down to is that there are some things that we just can't know.

creative commons  ain't it the truth?  much of what I believed for most of my life is now "shot full of holes". e.g., religion, government, truth, honesty, integrity, respect, honor, civility, etc., etc., etc.  oh well. the game is in the fourth quarter. it won't be much longer before the game is over.  

war natural disasters poverty injustice personal tragedies etc.    faith is believing that no matter what happens that it is what it is because God wills it. faith is trusting God no matter what happens.